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Arise, arise, Riders of Theoden!
Fell deeds awake: fire and slaughter!
spear shall be shaken, shield be splintered,
a sword-day, a red day, ere the sun rises!
Ride now, ride now! Ride to Gondor!
- Theoden, King of Rohan

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Booklist & Must-Haves:
Eragon
Ignorance by Milan Kundera
The Annotated Legends (Dragonlance)
The Princess Bride
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Tuesday, December 16, 2003
~Weeeeeeeeee!~

I did it! I actually think I aced the DASTRUC exam. Of course, it was really easy. The first part I mean. Honestly? I felt kind of insulted about the exam. After all the studying I did, this is what yew give us? But hey, I'm not complaining. It's just weird to study so damned hard for it, and feel so nervous (I felt like barfing the whole day) and then bam! Give away exam. Of course, if I didnt do the exercise I might not have answered the programming part that well. XD So now there's only Finals to think about. Ugh, more studying and more stress...

Sunday, December 14, 2003
Fat Merchants and Data Structures

The past few weeks have been hell. I've been on auto pilot, moving around with this awful feeling in the pit of my stomach that something horrible is going to happen. It's like in an instant, I suddenly lost control of my life. Which is supposed to be bullshit cause we are always in control of our lives. We just feel like we are not because we have to exclue the things we want to do from the possible choices we have to make. Like going to school. Dropping school is a choice. Just stop altogether and hang out an have fun. But we take this choice out of the list because some part of us feels that it is a wrong choice. Thus we limit our options, but we are still in control. I'm not making sense am I?

Oh well. Phooey. I just feel like I'm sinking. And for a control phreak like me, the mere thought of losing control over my life is enough to drive me absolutely crazy. There, I've sai it, okay? I'm a crazy control phreak. Jeez.

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I started my future Battlesmith. Yeah, whatever happened to quitting RO right? Lemme just say this. The mindless hacking an slashing somehow gives me comfort. Why? Because I dont have to burn up any braincells doing this. XD But gawd! What an ugly, fat merchant Arwyl™ is! I'm so sorry I ever called Nabiki ugly. Well, maybe not that sorry. Lol. XD

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I'm stalling, yes I know that. Okay, I'm gonna cut the crap now and study for Data Structures. Wish me luck.

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